I'm not going to talk about the Canucks...(win or loose, my already limited faith in them is dwindling)
However, let's discuss grad for a minute. It's pretty much here. And with it, the end of the year...and the future. I am starting to worry that my lack of enthusiasm towards grad is going to seriously poison the amount of fun I have on the night. And despite previously stated apprehensions toward this evening, I am more concerned that I am going to spend the night complaining, criticizing, stressing, or worrying. None of which grad should be about. Grad should be about spending time with friends, some of which you will probably never see much again after that night. I've already had a attitude overhaul towards grad, but now I worry that I just don't have ENOUGH feeling towards it any more. I worry that I'll arrive at grad, the music will blare, I'll eat my over priced food and watch the six hours evaporate and leave me wondering what I did at grad in the first place?
It's not apathy towards grad...that's even to strong a feeling. I just don't have ANY. It's a night I've helped organize that for some reason I have already filed under "passed tense". Even dislike towards grad would be accepted, but I don't have hate. I don't feel irked because of high ticket prices (there is nothing we could do, we tried to fundraise). I don't feel choked because of limos (I need to get to grad somehow, and well i've already paid. SO it's a way to get there). I don't feel stressed about ticket sales. I don't feel displeased with any of my fellow grad committee members (who have ALL done a great job, by the way. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU). I just don't feel anything. Grad is grad...and grad is one night.
So, I'll be there. I'll put a smile on my face. I'll drink my water, and I'll eat my personally-carved meat. I'll dance, and I'll talk to friends. But...none of this...for some rather unsettling reason is building up any burning desire to go to grad. If fact given the choice between sleep and grad...right now...i'd take sleep. (Is that concerning to anyone else?)
Signing Off,
DG
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